Monday, September 21, 2009

No Words to Speak

I don't know what to say that you haven't heard before:

Frustrated with not having paperwork that I should have had a long time ago...yep, you've heard that one already.

Worried about the cost of bringing her home and how to come up with that...yep, you've heard that one too.

Sad that this time last year I was preparing to go meet Anchise and now I'm feeling raw again with that date on the calendar approaching...been there, done that.

I have many thoughts and posts swirling in my brain that I don't know how to put into words where my heart will be clearly understood. I will just say I need prayer. I am at a loss.

11 comments:

Laura said...

Oh friend,
I am so so sorry. Nothing has caused me to become more undone than waiting and waiting and not knowing and waiting and losing and grieving and waiting. It seems to be so much more than one should ever be asked to endure. I pray that you feel Him holding you today. I don't know how, or what it looks like in the end, but I know He's got this. And He's got you- I pray for indescribable peace- that passes understanding- cuz He knows we do NOT understand!

Kathy Eden said...

Laura said it beautifully. Praying for you my friend!

Amanda said...

(((Hugs to you, Stephanie)))

It very much a vicious cycle. I don't care for it myself. But Laura did say it beautifully.

These things are sooooo infinitely small to the God we serve. Praying.

Greg's Wife said...

Oh, it is that time of year again isn't it? I am so sorry, Stephanie! I know how sad these kind of anniversaries can be. They always seem to come around right when you're starting to feel strong and like you're maybe getting over it, don't they? Slam! You're suddenly back in the pit and it just plain sucks. My heart aches with yours today. Hugs and prayers from FL, my friend!

We are Grateful!!! said...

Stephanie,
Just got home.
What piece of this puzzle are you waiting for? Paperwork from the courts or approval from the 1600?
Sorry, i am so tired and not caught up yet but i am lifting you up in prayer dear friend.
t

Jodie said...

So sorry, Steph. Praying for things to speed up and your sweet little girl to come home!

Lisa said...

I myself am struggling with you..the date is approaching with me hearing the news that the little girl that I desperatly wanted as mine but wasn't going to be is approaching as well..I've question alot this past few weeks and i'm sure you have read my blog I know that God has a plan for me but it doesn't hurt any less let me tell ya,and I can't really put what I really feel on it due to not sure who is reading it! But know that I am praying for you and pray that the papers are found quickly...and God will provide the funds for sweet Mercy to come home to her momma....

Kathy C. said...

Blessings--it's hard.

DotBlogger said...

I'm sorry. One day....

Laurie said...

Adoption is so difficult! It is a constant hurry up & wait situation. I know the weight on your chest will be relieved once you have Mercy at home.

Your in my thoughts & prayers.

Michelle said...

Thanks for sharing all feelings through all of this! You are not alone.