With that in mind I've not had a lot to say. Last week I was feeling especially exhausted with the adoption process. Now I realize things in Ghana are moving at lightning speed compared to Haiti, but after everything that's gone on for us I have been just sick of the whole thing.
Last week I met someone just starting the adoption process. She told me where they were adopting from and I immediately said, "well you are in for a wait then". She told me it wouldn't be so bad and she thought they would be OK. I didn't say anything, but on the inside I was thinking that you have no idea what this wait and this process will do to a person. That this amazing act can make you feel like you are drowning when standing with your feet firmly planted on dry land. And then it hit me - I have turned into the worlds worst advocate for adoption. That is so NOT the person I want to be.
We were thinking we would have had court by now or at the very least have a court date. Alas, neither of those things has happened. I am praying, praying, praying that we will hear something this week. On Friday I got new pictures of Mercy with the latest care package stuff we sent her. Suddenly most of the bad feelings I was having earlier in the week were washed away. Her smile was like a soothing balm to my heart. Five glorious pictures providing sweet relief from the pain of being separated by an ocean. Reminding me once again that any pain that I have to go through is worth it.
Worth every tear.
Worth every prayer.
Worth. it. all.
Why are you downcast, O my soul?Why so disturbed within me?Put your hope in God,for I will yet praise Him,my Savior and my God.Psalm 43:5