Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again—rejoice! Let everyone see that you are considerate in all you do. Remember, the Lord is coming soon. Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you.Let me just be honest - I have not been full of joy. The holiday season, although filled many wonderful moments, has been filled with pressure. The scab that had formed over the loss of Anchise has been ripped off. I've been fearful of what's to come regarding the adoption. I haven't been filled with peace.
The pressure of trying to figure out the right thing regarding the adoption has changed my perspective. Satan has been working overtime trying to use this pressure to push down my dreams, faith & commitment to God's plan for us. I have been overwhelmed at times with the uncertainty of the whole thing.
So today I have no more certainty than when we started this journey some 17 months ago. I cannot put my trust in this process as it is a process made by men. I can, however, choose to put my trust in the living God. For He is the One that started this good work and will carry it through to completion. My hope is in Him.