Saturday, January 3, 2009

Under Pressure

Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again—rejoice! Let everyone see that you are considerate in all you do. Remember, the Lord is coming soon. Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you.
Philipians 4:4-9
Let me just be honest - I have not been full of joy. The holiday season, although filled many wonderful moments, has been filled with pressure. The scab that had formed over the loss of Anchise has been ripped off. I've been fearful of what's to come regarding the adoption. I haven't been filled with peace.

The pressure of trying to figure out the right thing regarding the adoption has changed my perspective. Satan has been working overtime trying to use this pressure to push down my dreams, faith & commitment to God's plan for us. I have been overwhelmed at times with the uncertainty of the whole thing.

So today I have no more certainty than when we started this journey some 17 months ago. I cannot put my trust in this process as it is a process made by men. I can, however, choose to put my trust in the living God. For He is the One that started this good work and will carry it through to completion. My hope is in Him.

12 comments:

Brandy and Troy said...

{{Hugs}} Praying for peace that surpassess all understanding.

Tereasa said...

I have never experienced what you are going through. I am so sorry, but I have confidence that the Lord will see you through. God bless you!

Greg's Wife said...

Praying for you, sweet lady!

Kathy said...

I hurt for you.

Kathy Eden said...

I continue to pray for you & your decisions.

Lena Wright said...

Thanks for posting this-I needed it. Praying for you and with you my dear friend.

Hugs,

L

Amanda said...

Praying that you'll find the peace that you need.

poseygirl said...

I am praying for your peace. You certainly are putting your trust in the right place.

Tree by the Sea Farms said...

I am so sorry for your pain.

Suzanne

livingpurereligion said...

As with any adventure we follow God on, we can be sure that the process is just as important as the end result. Along the way, He molds us, teaches us, and makes us into who He wants us to be. Holiness and sanctification are His desire for us. He uses this process to help us "work out our salvation with fear and trembling." Hope, faith and trust become our dearest companions on this journey... as we travel along, blindfolded and screaming all the way:) We love you and we are praying for you. The road is not easy. It's a lot like the roads in Haiti:) But He will give us grace for the journey! Praying!

Eric and Michelle said...

This scripture has been very timely for me recently too. TO GOD BE THE GLORY amen?

Dawn S. said...

I am all choked up. Everyone keeps saying the kids will come home in God's timing, and I KNOW that, but why is God's timing 6 months if you adopt from Ethiopia and two+ years if you adopt from Haiti? I think sometimes it is a daily decision or action to be calm, trusting and feel the peace in the Lord. hugs.