Sunday, January 25, 2009

Looking for a Sign

I have to admit about mid last week I started not doing so well. Our desire through this whole process is to follow God's plan for us. Along the way we've had many confirmations that this was good and right. When Anchise was taken back it was like the rug had been pulled out from underneath us. These days it seems there are a whole lot of questions with no answers to any of them.

Are we supposed to wait?
Will Anchise come back?
Are we not meant to adopt from Haiti?
Are we meant to adopt from Haiti?
Would Ghana be a good choice?
Would Ethiopia be a good choice?
If we chose either of those countries how would we come up with the money quickly?
If we stay with Haiti how are we going to come up with the rest of the money?
ARE WE MEANT TO ADOPT AT ALL?

It's difficult to have all of these thoughts running through your mind at one time! The truth is I don't know what the right answer is. I am completely willing to do whatever the Lord wants me to do - I just wish He would let me in on the plan.

I just want everyone to know how much I appreciate your prayers and ask that you continue to lift us up. My dear sweet friend reminded me just yesterday that God WILL lead us to our child. And so we pray with all of our hearts for this precious one (or two). We pray that when God speaks we will listen. We pray that we will be waiting with joyful expectancy for His plan to be revealed.

15 comments:

Leslie said...

Praying for you to sense God's presence with you as you wait for His guidance.

Kathy said...

Those are all good questions. Praying for peace while you work through the answers.

Bill and Christina said...

I pray that peace will lead you.
Christina

kdetter said...

i remember feeling all these things with our first adoption....we did not know if china was our plan....at one point i was kinda freaking out....so i asked god very specifically to show my husband and i by the end of the weekend what we were to do....i went away for a youth retreat and the speaker just happened to talk about how he is a missionary in china....okay i had my answer...and when i came home my husband had drawn a picture of a stone wall with the word china on it......we had our answer and miracle and we both separately heard from god....you will get an answer and find a peace......

keri

Tree by the Sea Farms said...

Hang in there....you are on the right path if you are trying to do whatever God's plan is.

I agree that the hardest part is not knowing which way He wants you to go.

So many people praying for you is exactly what you need right now.

I pray that God gives you comfort while you Wait on the Lord.

suzanne

Amanda said...

those are all heavy, loaded questions that I wish I could just help you with but I'm sooo thankful that you serve God, who will direct your path.

Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path.

(((Hugs))))

Kathy Eden said...

I don't have much to add to what has already been said. I continue to pray for peace while you wait for His plan to be clearly revealed to you. {{{Hugs}}}

mlg said...

Sounds like we are in the same boat, Hope all works out well for you and that you will be guided in the right direction.

Michelle said...

agreeing with you in prayer and waiting for the answer to rejoice with you. :)

crispy said...

Just keep waiting and resting in the truth of God's word. The right door will open. And the ones you shouldn't walk through will close. The Spirit will lead.

Lena Wright said...

I will continue to pray for you and with you, my friend.

It sounds like we're in the same boat-as far as the questions go. I am asking the same type of questions, not about our adoption, but about some other big stuff. We face decisions, and can't seem to find peace/clarity about which way to go. So we wait. I don't like it, but I trust that God will reveal our next step in His timing, not mine, AND that He knows better than me. After all, He's got the BIG PICTURE, and I don't.

So I can relate, and I will pray.

Hugs,

Lena

Tereasa said...

{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}

Greg's Wife said...

You know I'm praying for clarity. Love you!

Katy said...

I wish I had some answers for you, but know that I keep praying...I KNOW your family will include a precious orphan...don't lose faith. It is all in His plan..

Michelle said...

Yes well Played!