Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Heartbroken

I've tried not to be down & out about the money thing for some time now. God has amazingly provided the funds needed for our home study and I am eternally grateful. I know the money coming in was through His grace alone.

Our current needs are to pay the $4,000 agency fee and the $670 fee to file our I-600A. I spoke with Sara this morning about our situation. She said COTP had asked how close we were on our dossier because of possible referrals to offer their approved applicants. This has really hit me hard. Our daughter could possibly be at the orphanage right now and I can't say yes to her because of money. I hate this. I feel sad and angry and disappointed. I feel like my hands are tied and all I can do is pray for strength to get through this and that He will make a way for us financially.

Our final home study visit is tomorrow. Please pray that all goes well. Please pray for God's will to be done in our lives through this adoption. Please pray for hearts to be softened and doors to open.

I wanna set the world on fire
Until it’s burning bright for You
It’s everything that I desire
Can I be the one You use?
I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
There’s nothing I can not do
Nothing I cannot do
I wanna feed the hungry children
And reach across the farthest land
And tell the broken there is healing
And mercy in the Father’s hands
My hands my feet
My everything
My life, my love
Lord, use me
I wanna set the world on fire
I wanna set the world on fire, yeah
I’m gonna set the world on fire
Set the world on fire
Set the World on Fire by Britt Nicole

5 comments:

livingpurereligion said...

I heard that song on the radio the other day and cried.

We have the same concerns about finances. It's hard! One thing to remember is that the God who called you to this will provide all of your needs in His time. If your daughter is at COTP waiting for you right now then He will surely supply what you need to claim her. Maybe she isn't quite ready yet, though. God knows all of that!!!

After meeting our two kids, I knew that I knew that I knew that God had ordained them to be ours from the beginning of time. It's amazing how many things had to fall into place in order for us to find them. Through all of the setbacks, delays, and obstacles we can see His leading hand all of the way. If we had been ready sooner... our children wouldn't have been!

We are praying for you and can't wait until this side of the process is finished and God reveals the daughter that your heart longs to find! What a day that will be:)

Praying, Cara

Laurie said...

Coming up with the money is always the difficult part. Can you remortgage your home & take out a little equity? I cashed RRSP's to pay for all my adoption expenses. Guess I won't be retiring for awhile anyway. :)

COTP is a wonderful creche. I will be heading there sometime soon to pick up my kiddo's (hopefully the end of this month) so if you have any questions about COTP let me know & I will try to find the answers out for you.

Hugs, Laurie

Katy said...

Hi Stephanie! Thanks for checking out my blog. I know you are discouraged, but God is good!! I was so frustrated today that I am so sick, and my police check hadn't come. I spontaneously drove to the records dept, and the lady came up and handed my notarized police check. She said, "oh, sorry I didn't have time to mail this yet..." Oh, my I was so thrilled, I went straight to the county and state offices and finished up the document certification, FINALLY! Then I zipped straight home, sick all the while, and emailed them to my translator! All that is left now is to wait for that, then on to CCI for final checks. (OH, yeah, and thousands of dollars plus LOTS OF waiting for my little girl!) Seriously, though? God WILL provide for our baby girls to come home! I can't tell you how, but trust that God will make sure you have the money for the little girl who is waiting to be in your family! Katy

Salzwedel Family said...

Thank you all for your encouraging words. They mean so much to me. I know God's hand is leading us so I cling to that. People have been a bit discouraging though, but thankfully my father in Heaven picks me up & holds me in His hands. Just today someone asked me why we just don't focus on the kids we have already instead of adding another one. I don't know how to make them "get it". Bless you all.

stephanie garcia said...

We, too, are facing the seemingly insurmountable issue of finances ... getting close to finishing our dossier but facing it being held up if we don't have the agency fee by then. Learning to trust, one day at a time! GOD bless!