Sunday, January 31, 2010

A Weird Place To Be

It's really strange and difficult to blog these days. The vast majority of adoptive families I've become acquainted with have brought their children home from Haiti in the past week. While I have rejoiced and cried happy tears for them, I'll admit it leaves me feeling a bit left behind.

The e-mail from our facilitator earlier in the week said he was "sure we would have it (the passport) by Friday". Friday came and went without a word either way. Sadly, it's what I've become accustomed to. I don't feel sad. I don't feel mad. I just really don't feel anything.

Another week gone...c'est la vie.

Another Monday looming.

Another week of possibility.

Praying I don't make it to another Friday without any news or progress.

16 comments:

Bill and Christina said...

Stephanie, I am praying for you! Take a hold of God's word and proclaim it over your situation! God's truth is greater than the facts of your situation!

Tracy said...

Hi Stephanie!
I am praying that this is the week you will hear that the passport is ready. Having been through the wait, I know how much your heart is hurting. My heart is hurting for you and for Mercy. I wish tht I could tell you more than I am praying but that is all I have for you right now. God alone knows why you are having to wait this long. I can only tell you that in the end, you won't even remember the hurt that you are feeling right now. Holding her in your arms will wipe all of the pain away. Hugs and prayers to you!!

Jen said...

I am so sorry you did not get news either way. I think it is horrible that your agency tells you they are sure it will be Friday and never follow up to let you know either way. It is just so cruel to do that to a family.

I hope they let you know what is going on Monday and that February is your month- passport, visa, homecoming...

I am praying for you...

Jennine

stephanie garcia said...

Stephanie, my heart has been aching for you through all this. You have waited so long, through joys and losses and the tangled web of two separate countries. Praying for Mercy ... God's, and your precious girl.

Wife to the Rockstar said...

PRAYING HERE. I have a feeling you are getting good news really soon.

Rhyan said...

Stephanie,
I have been reading your blog since before the earthquake. I am so sorry that I have never left you a comment. I don't think about how the words you hear from someone you don't even know can lift your spirits. I have worked in Haiti for the last few years, I was there on January 12th during the earthquake and I was on a flight that brought out "the Haiti 80" on the 21st. I know you are longing to hold your girls. I am longing for you. They need their mommy and I am crying out on your behalf, that they will soon be allowed to join you. I don't know you but I love your heart! Praying your family is complete soon!

Lena Wright said...

Hugs to you, prayers for you.

Kathy C. said...

Hope it's this week! You've been waiting too long for that passport. Hope it doesn't take a natural disaster to bring her home!

Amanda said...

Praying that you hear definite news TODAY, instead of 'iffie' news. Today is Monday.

Also, please know that at some point, we've all felt "left behind" so I'm so glad you posted this and don't hide it away. Even though we all have individual stories, we're all in it together.

Love ya! Praying for your miracle today.

Annie said...

I know it is all for a reason. I can't imagine being you, though.....it is like you've inhaled and can't exhale. And for the SECOND time....that is the amazing part.

whenpigsfly said...

Oh I hope and pray that this is your week of good news!! I am waitign to exhale over possible good news today too!

We are Grateful!!! said...

The "silence" is the worst part (or was for me). Thinking and praying for you today.
If i didn't hear anything by Friday, i knew it was going to be a long weekend. On Mondays, i would have hope for a "new week" and hope of news. "Lord! Let there be good news this week! Please!!!"

Greg's Wife said...

I am praying the same, Stephanie. I am sick, sick, sick of this, and I KNOW you feel that way a thousand times over. I ALWAYS hated Fridays when we were in process. Prior to adopting they were days to look forward to - of fun, free time with my husband. Once our dossier was submitted they became long days of painful waiting, that usually ended in no news, which left me feeling vacant and hopeless until Monday. Now I wish I could have those Fridays and lost weekends back. You'll probably one day wish the same. But I also know you can't simply will yourself to not notice that it's Friday and will yourself to forget your child who's so far away. So once again I can only ask, Lord, please... Mercy, Mercy, Mercy!

JacciM said...

Hi, Stephanie :) You don't know me, but I decided to comment, hoping that I might be able to offer a little encouragement by telling you that our little family of 6 will pray for Mercy and for you. I'm not just saying that. I'll sho Mercy's photo to my children and we will PRAY. May the Lord give your heart some rest tonight.

Warmly,
Jacci in Ohio

IsntThatAmusing said...

My heart aches for you....I can't imagine how you must be feeling with so many children coming home from where you started. I am praying and praying for your sweet angel Mercy...You know I can tell you personally that God's timing truly IS perfect...I never knew for sure with this adoption process if I'd believe it, but never in a million years would I have predicted the turn of events in the last few weeks that finally brought her home. I am still staring at her as if she would disappear, but she is here, she is real. Hold strong, friend...He WILL bring your angel home too.

Jess said...

Praying too... and Mercy is so lovely & well cared for!