Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Just Couldn't Do It...

I was scheduled to have a Tastefully Simple adoption fundraiser at our home this Saturday, but I cancelled. I flopped back and forth at least a hundred times on whether or not to have it. I mean, the financial need is still there. The adoption is not over. But the thought of having to talk about it over and over again just seemed overwhelming to me. Don't get me wrong, people have been very supportive, but good intentioned questions and comments sometimes cut like a knife.

So, I bailed on the party, for now. I'm thinking the end of January may be a good time to get together after all of the holiday stuff is over. This is hard.

11 comments:

Kathy Eden said...

That sounds like a good plan to me. And if you still don't feel like repeating yourself then...just tape record a "briefing", put it in a private room & if someone asks you about it, tell them to go to "room Y & push play."
That's what I wanted to do when Jonathan died but I didn't have the energy. I just started crying & told them that I couldn't talk right now.
Thinking of you & praying for you! {{{ Hugs }}}

Salzwedel Family said...

That is a great idea! I always knew you were a smart lady Kathy.

Eric and Michelle said...

I am sorry Stephanie....praying for you often.

The Real Me said...

My family is praying for your family. What a journey this adoption stuff is! We are praying for little Anchise too.

The Gratz Family

Greg's Wife said...

I'm glad you canceled, Stephanie. God will provide what you need when you need it. There's no rush. Thanks for your honesty in these posts. I like Kathy's idea, too! Still praying for y'all...

Amanda said...

That sounds like a good plan, Stephanie. God DOES provide.

Lisa said...

I can't imagine what you and your family are going through with how far you all have gotten also.But God has a plan for you and for little Anchise.I have told many people this story and their hearts have ached for you and for the birth mom as well.I could never imagine placing my child up for adoption,what a hard thing to do but I also can't imagine not wanting my child to be somewhere good if I couldn't provide either so it's a tough decision no matter what you do.We also have had some bad news in the last 2 weeks with a little girl that we love as well,different story but it still hurts deeply,but God will show us the way.

livingpurereligion said...

Good choice to cancel!

I know it's tough. I'm praying.

mlg said...

I'm sorry for this heartache you are going through, we will keep your family in our thoughts and prayers and hope that your little girl will make it back to your family.

Katy said...

I think you absolutely made a good choice...you need time to just "be." I hurt for you so badly, I can't even imagine your pain. I pray for you often!

Lena Wright said...

This seems like the wisest course of action...I'm praying for you all.